I recently listened to one of my favorite podcast about the excuses we make for not writing. As I listened to the speaker outline the many excuses for not writing, I became guilty. I could relate to nearly everyone that she gave.
I then asked myself a question…..
“Charlene what is really holding you back from accomplishing your goals?”
As I tried to answer my question, I mentally compiled a list.
- Could raising Nate, my son with special needs be holding me back?
- Working and caring for a household?
- Tiredness and exhaustion after a hectic day of teaching elementary school students?
- The dysfunctional relationship that I spent years pining over, that finally ended?
- Or my attachment to my phone constantly, checking emails and text messages?
- Or the many hours I spend checking my blog statistics or roaming through social media?
Hummmm? What could it be?
That was when the answer to that question appeared. It was me. Yes!
Me, Me, Me, Me. (And I’m screaming).
I was the only deterrent to my success.
I was the one that was stopping myself from writing.
I was the one that wasted time, when I could have written for 5 minutes, 10 minutes or even an hour or more during the day.
It was me that wasted opportunities to write.
I made excuses for not completing my stories.
I put them down, allowing the passion and drive to slowly dwindle away from me.
It was all me. I was holding myself back from accomplishing my goals.
And as I recognized that I am my own problem, I remembered a quote by Friedrich Nietzsche,
“But the worst enemy you can meet will always be yourself.”
I believe this is true. We are our own and worst enemy. We are the antagonist in our own lives that stops us from pursuing our goals and our purpose.
And it is time that “YOU” and “ME” make a decision, that we will no longer be that enemy, but the ones that do whatever is necessary to accomplish our goals and purpose in life.